Obviously I’m stubborn and more than a little thick headed.  I’m eager for God to reveal His great plan for my life because lately, I’m just not getting it.  I’m tired, I’m frustrated, I’m lonely, and I’m growing impatient.  Does He want me to get mad?  Does He want me to get fired up?  What am I supposed to be doing?  What am I missing?  There’s a point out there somewhere that’s just not reaching me.

I feel like I’m just spinning my wheels, moving from one day to the next, not making much of a difference with anything that I’m doing.  On Tuesdays, I do the same thing that I do every single Tuesday.  On Wednesdays, I do the same thing that I do every single Wednesday.  I’m stuck in this loop, halfway afraid I’ll never make it off and halfway afraid of what would happen if I jumped.

Don’t tell me life is what happens while you wait.  I’m tired of that line.  I’m tired of all the same reasons, justifications, and excuses.  I’m tired of everything getting me nowhere.   I’m restless and irritated most of the time.  I feel highly productive yet utterly useless all at once.

There’s gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I’m gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I’m looking for
There’s gotta be something more
–Sugarland