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What I See From Here

Monday, February 8th, 2010

I’m camped out at the dining room table tapping away on the lap top and contemplating whether or not I should go to bed.  From where I’m sitting, I look up and stare ahead into the kitchen. Stuck to the side of the refrigerator is a “project” that my 6 year old son brought home just before school let out for winter break.

The assignment: Gingerbread Man Decorating. They were given a kraft paper cut out of a Gingerbread Man, sent home in their backpacks with instructions to decorate the confection however they saw fit.

This was my son’s:

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That’s right. It’s a ninja.

Coolest. kid. ever.

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My Christmas List

Saturday, December 19th, 2009

treeMy Christmas list was short this year. On it were just a few inexpensive necessities that I seem to go without picking up through out the year because it’s easier to spend those extra dollars each month on something the kids need. My needs can wait. My needs have been something I’m all too quick to ignore or put on the back burner.

What wasn’t written on my Christmas list are the things that can’t be wrapped and placed under a tree decorated with ribbons and bows.

I want someone to stand under the mistletoe with. I want a hand to hold as I walk down this path I’m on. I want a shoulder to lean my head on and a knee to bow next to in prayer. I need eyes to see me for the mother that I am and the woman I strive to be each day. I need arms to hold me when the world seems a little heavy that day. I need a heart filled with the love of Christ to share forever with.

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No more lives torn apart,
That wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
And everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end, oh.
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

-Amy Grant, “Grown-Up Christmas List”

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Lesson Learned

Sunday, November 8th, 2009

lakestudy003I really didn’t know what to expect from this three-day camping trip with 130+ fifth graders.  I knew that we’d have plenty of chaperones, I knew that we’d be staying in indoor cabins (thank you God!), and I knew that we’d be outside 90% of the day.  Beyond that – it was a crap shoot.

The kids were bursting with excitement coming off the buses and scurried around like a bunch of ants as they searched for their sleeping bags and duffels in one of the largest piles of “stuff” I’ve ever seen.  It was interesting to see how prepared, or unprepared as the case may be, for three days away from home.  It was easy to spot those who have camped before: one small sleeping bag, one backpack, that’s it.  It was painfully obvious to see those who hadn’t: rolling suitcase, quilt or comforter stuffed in a garbage bag with a pillow slung across the top.

The girls in our cabin made quick work of setting up their bunks and making sure the beds were made just right.  They giggled and laughed as they explored the cabin and the deck off the back overlooking the lake.  Without any prodding, they began to pick up brooms (brooms!) that were kept in the cabins corner and started sweeping the floors.  The other chaperones and I joked that this type of spontaneous cleaning would never happen at home.

The trip was filled with hiking through the woods, afternoons by the lake and nights by fire making smores.  Each activity was a science lesson in disguise.  I was amazed at what all I learned myself during the week.

But the one thing that I learned wasn’t taught in the hard wood hammock or at the edge of the lake’s aquatic habitat.  I learned that I’ve done a pretty good job of raising my daughter to be an independent, confident, respectful young girl.  All week long I watched other children – boys and girls – stumble and flail around, lost without their parents, barely able to tend to their own basic needs.  I spoke about it with another mom on the trip and we both wanted to pat ourselves on the back for a job well done.

Does The Girl get lippy with me from time to time?  Yes.  Does she show a stubborn side of her that can only be attributed to her mother’s upbringing?  Most definitely yes.  But she made me proud this week at camp.  I got to see a side of her that I’m usually not around to witness.  The way she behaved with her friends and with the other chaperones, the way she took care of herself and her belongings, her personal responsibility as a whole – she was the complete package.

Yeah, I nearly broke my arm patting myself on the back.

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Making It Home

Tuesday, July 28th, 2009

mybedAfter four nights in the new apartment, I finally got back to making the bed up properly with the skirt, mattress protector and top cover.  I love the way a freshly made bed feels as you slide beneath its smooth sheets, made better only by clean shaven legs.  But this night as I surveyed my bed making skills, I wasn’t thinking about smooth sheets and legs.  It was the first moment since moving in that I thought to myself, “this is my home.”

“Home” for someone who’s moved as frequently as I have in the last 10 years is less about the four walls, bricks and mortar.  It’s more about the people and the spirit contained within those walls.  This apartment isn’t where I want to find myself two years from now.  It isn’t where I want scratch lines in a door frame with pencil as my children grow taller.  But wherever I am, wherever my children are, I want it to be home.

It would be easy for me to leave things in boxes, stuffed in corners and closets. Decorations can stay wrapped in paper and pictures can never be hung.  But for the sake of “home” these things are put out there because it makes me feel good to have them there.  I could leave books and games and dolls packed away.  Except that it makes my kids feel more comforted and secure to have them around, even if it means I trip over them all as I walk through their shared room.  I want it to feel like home.

This goes beyond temporary versus permanent housing.  It’s about finding peace and contentment with whatever situation we are faced with in our lives.  It’s about making a choice to react positively to changes we otherwise have very little control over.  It’s about being thankful for what we have and daily seeking ways to bless those around us.

Digitized

Saturday, January 17th, 2009
I was fumbling through a closet earlier this evening looking for the cord to an old radio when I came across several packets of pictures developed from film. I sat down in the hallway in front of the open closet, cords scattered all around me, and began flipping through the prints.

In the years before digital cameras, and especially when I lived 500 miles from home, I took pictures on my old film camera constantly. With a new baby and grandparents no where nearby, I was expected to document The Girl’s early days. As soon as I’d fill up a roll I would race to the drug store or megamart to have them developed; duplicates were mandatory. Half would be split between family members and the other half would be put in a box of other picture envelopes waiting to be put in a photo album.

I was much better at taking and having pictures developed than I ever was at putting them in albums. Stacks and stacks of pictures would collect before I’d run out for a few three-inch photo binders to store them it. The chore was tedious. I had the child in front of me – what did I need to make an album for only to have it sit on a shelf and collect dust?

Nine years later I stumble upon the last of the envelopes that never made it to an album. Envelopes that were packed up and moved four states away to sit in yet another box, doomed never to grace the pages of a plastic film covered sheet. Nine years later and I’m sitting on the floor smiling from ear to ear at pictures of The Girl dressed up in play clothes, tiara fixed just so, septor in hand. Nine years later and wondering where all the pictures of The Boy are.

Actually I know exactly were the vast majority of them are: still on the computer having never been printed at all. My first digital camera was obtained shortly after his birth. His life has been documented in pixels and jpegs but not too many 4×6 prints. He asked me once after looking through one of The Girls albums, “where are my pictures?” I laughed at the thought then pointed to the computer, “in there Bubba.”

Photo book-making websites are all the rage now. Upload, sort, decorate, border, caption, and voila – a printed photo album is waiting to be shipped to you. As much as I used to avoid putting prints in a three-ring album, I’ve avoided making a photo book for The Boy.

The kids are gone for the next week at their Dadda’s house. Quite alone time is something I will have in abundance until they return on Friday. I need to make this a priority to complete. He needs his own picture book. Lord knows I have a thousand pictures of him.

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