I didn’t realize it has been so long since my last entry. Things continue to be busy – this part never seems to change. It just morphs into different types of busy. Busy holiday season, busy summer, busy fall, and then it circles back around. A parent with children who’s ages are a bit older than mine once told me to get used to this busyness of life. “It’s the season of parenting you are in,” she said. She was right.
The schedules stay full and keep us running but there is more. There is a heaviness in my heart that has been brought on by a rent in the fabric of my family. My entire life I have been close to my oldest sister. Sure, as young girls we fought like most siblings do. But as we got older we became more than sisters, we became best friends. It’s just not like that anymore. The reasons, justifications, and details could fill the pages of an unabridged dictionary – certainly a more appropriate place to put them than here. But nevertheless, our family is not whole and we are all hurting.
So to take my mind off of things, I stay – well…busy. Busy with the kids remembering to pack lunches, sign report cards, practice spelling words, fill backpacks with bathing suits and karate gi’s. Busy at work getting ready for an annual compliance audit. Busy at home keeping some semblance of order within the chaos. Busy at church with the choir as we begin in earnest our preparations for the Christmas festival the first week of December.
Busy, busy, busy.
very sorry to hear things within your family are not well. also hoping that from time to time you can step back from the busy and just breathe.
i try. then i feel guilty for the “me time.” what gives!?
Life is change. Sometimes for the good. Sometimes for the not so good.
When will you be busy with your continuing ed to keep your licenses?
p.s. Do not feel guilty for the “me time”. It is necessary for you to be a good adult, which is necessary for you to be a good parent.
i’m happy to report i am current on all CEs. as a matter of fact, today was a deadline to have some firm element & compliance courses completed – i was done two weeks ago! no more last minute stuff ever again! as for the me time? the guilt stems from not wanting to be “glad” the kids are going away for a week. i’m never glad. just need to recharge. that is most definately necessary.
Luv you sis!
-Cindy
my rock… love you too.
There is nothing wrong with needing a little time to yourself…you work very hard and take good care of the kiddos…you deserve it.
Hope the rift is mended soon.
i hope so too. i pray that every day.
I wouldn’t think you’d be glad about the kids going away, but that doesn’t mean you have to be a grumpy Gus when they are gone. You didn’t plan (or at least start the marriage out with a plan) to be divorced but now that it has happened you can make the best of it. The kids going away for a week is a fact.
You should put the bonus time, the time you normally spend being a single mom, to good use. I think that should include a sliver of ME time for the usually single mother. At least go an get yourself some Skittles and enjoy 30 minutes sitting in the sun.
well, just goes to show i need to shut my mouth more often. just found out the ex will be out of town for the next few weeks on an extended business trip to california. i’ll have PLENTY of extra time with the kiddos now!