Obviously I’m stubborn and more than a little thick headed. I’m eager for God to reveal His great plan for my life because lately, I’m just not getting it. I’m tired, I’m frustrated, I’m lonely, and I’m growing impatient. Does He want me to get mad? Does He want me to get fired up? What am I supposed to be doing? What am I missing? There’s a point out there somewhere that’s just not reaching me.
I feel like I’m just spinning my wheels, moving from one day to the next, not making much of a difference with anything that I’m doing. On Tuesdays, I do the same thing that I do every single Tuesday. On Wednesdays, I do the same thing that I do every single Wednesday. I’m stuck in this loop, halfway afraid I’ll never make it off and halfway afraid of what would happen if I jumped.
Don’t tell me life is what happens while you wait. I’m tired of that line. I’m tired of all the same reasons, justifications, and excuses. I’m tired of everything getting me nowhere. I’m restless and irritated most of the time. I feel highly productive yet utterly useless all at once.
There’s gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I’m gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I’m looking for
There’s gotta be something more
–Sugarland
· “Man will occasionally stumble over the truth, but most times he will pick himself up and carry on.”
–Winston Churchill
· If you find your self in a rut, you can change your situation or change your response to your situation.
· Then take your chance. It has been my experience that God rarely shares his plans. One of the tests is figuring out what is on the test.
· “Life can only be understood by looking backward; but it must be lived looking forward” —Soren Kierkegaard
Yeah. I would be on that same looping track. I long for the excitement and freshness that so many events of my youth brought me. We need more “firsts”
i know too well this feeling. it sucks & staying in this mind-set can be so exhausting. but i just keep doing what i know to be doing – keep seeking, keep praying, keep trusting. sometimes it makes sense, other days it doesn’t & then that’s when anger surely shows up. i hate saying “hang in there” but in reality, isn’t that all you can do? “be brave. be strong. don’t give up. expect god to get here soon.” psalm 31:24
Patience is a really, really difficult lesson to learn. Especially if you’ve been praying for patience (because God tests you in it, lol.) It’s a lesson I have to learn over myself from time to time. Like with the housebuying. Oy.
When in doubt, wait…on the Lord. Impulsive decisions can complicate things. Wait for His will and His timing and trust His leading.
Back in my single days, I heard a speaker say, “BE the kind of person you wish to attract”…then get busy doing something you’re passionate about. It puts you in a better position to meet others with similar interests.
And keeping busy with smoething that you enjoy or are passionate about is a great way to pass the time between where you are now and where you will be when the timing is just right.